The struggle is real

Sorry I haven’t wrote for a long time I just haven’t had anything to really write lately and I dont want to bore you. So I usually go out to eat on the weekends but I’m trying to stay away from it. So on Friday I was talking to hubby about what to eat and we couldn’t figure it out. I was pacing the house and getting anxious because I just wanted to go out to eat and not cook. I was trying  to find any excuse to go out to eat but hubby wouldn’t have it. So we ended up making spicy Thai noodles which was delicious. Then Saturday I went to my moms with my grandma, my daughter and niece. We ended up going to pizza ranch for dinner, and then I ate culvers on Sunday for lunch. As we were driving I was telling my grandma about me trying to lose weight and how hard it is. I am a food addict and love to eat anything, go out to eat and eat beyond me being full. So last week some time I was driving and I have been craving to eat chick fil a because I want to try there frozen lemonade. So I drove by it last week and kept looking in my mirror and trying to talk myself into why I should get it. “Well you have been wanting it”, “just turn around and get a small frozen lemonade”, “no just keep driving, you don’t need it”. So I did just that I kept on driving. But it is embedded in my brain and will sit there until I try it. I was telling my grandma how I struggle with myself on going out to eat or eating certain foods. It’s a struggle to not just go through the drive thru and get food or go out to eat. She had no idea that that’s how I felt and that I go through those struggles. However I lost 5 pounds and im so happy about that, it took me over a month to get the 5 pounds off but that’s 5 pounds and a good step in the right direction. Until next time…. Goodnight

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Did what I do best, eat my emotions

Today was one of those days I didn’t want to deal with work. I was texting my hubby about how my day was going and how annoyed I was getting. I was at one of my job sites and he texted me that he lost his job. Talk about shocked,upset and scared about what is going to happen for finances. When I arrived to another job site I walked by a vending machine and seen a snickers. So I did what I do best, eat my emotions. Then I had a meeting and ate a bite size reeses cup. I brought snacks with me for the day so I ended up eating cheese and crackers instead of all the junk food they had. I did grab some snacks to bring home for the kids. For dinner tonight hubby made a chicken sandwich and tater tots. It was delicious and wanted more but I was full and was done eating. Now I’m ready for bed, which I have been tired more lately. I have been hoping with working out that I would get more energy. I know eating better will also help get more energy. I have been waking up a lot lately with head aches and sometimes threw out my day I get head aches and want to figure out what is causing it. I know stress can play a part in it. Until next time…. Goodnight

Not alot to say….

Today was a good day, about half way through my day I was really tired all of a sudden. I just wanted to lay down and take a nap. Came home from work and hubby decided he wanted pizza made with the cauliflower crust, so that’s what we made. For some reason it didn’t smell or taste the same, but it was still good. We made the kids there pizza first then ours and by the time it was time to eat I had two slices and was full and done eating. Put the rest in the fridge, hopefully it tastes the same tomorrow. I didn’t work out today since I worked out yesterday and will work out on Thursday, who knows I might workout tomorrow as well. I need to keep going and get this weight off it wont come off by it self :). I don’t have much to write today because everything was going good and no complaints. Until next time…. Goodnight

The results are in….

Weekend has come and gone already, one week closer to leaving on our vacation. So i didnt have such a good weekend saturday i went out to eat at taco bell for lunch. Later that night we went to a friends house and when we left it was after 12. Hubby and i were hungry and were debating on if we wanted to get something to eat. In my head i was screaming hell yeah lets get some white castles. The words out of my mouth where no because we have to pass the house go down the street then tomorrow we will regret it and say, “Why did we eat white castle last night”?  So we ended up just going home and to bed. Woke up sunday morning and i told hubby that i wanted a donut. I didnt want a donut from the gas station or from the grocery store, i wanted something different and good. I was thinking mojo monkey, so i looked up the donuts they had and picked two that i wanted. Well if one wasnt there then the other would be my back up. I wanted to go but i knew if i did i would have bought my self like 2 or 3 donuts just so i could have them to eat for the next few days. Well hubby went, thank god i wouldnt be tempted to get more than one donut. Hubby came home and i couldnt wait to eat my peanut butter and jelly donut with potato chips on top. All though the donut was delicious i had gut rut from all the sugar. I was still hungry after since i just had sugar. But didnt eat anything ekse since i just had a donut. Went to my brothers house on sunday for dinner and had grilled burgers, brats, chips and dip and baked beans. Was delicious cant wait for summer so we can grill more often. Then we went to pick up our son from my mothers house and bought wendys on the way home. My daughter and i shared a meal she had chicken nuggets i had a burger and we shared the fries and drink. 

I recieved my results back from my thyroid test and eveything came back normal. Part of my was a little sad because i thought this could be my problem to not losing weight, getting pregnant and hair loss. All i would have had to do was take a pill to get it all normal again. Then the other part of me was relieved because then i dont have to take pills, but now i know i have to work out twice as hard and eat more healthier. Which is all fine with me. I have a meeting tomorrow so i decided to work out today, i will probably still work out tomorrow but we’ll see where the day takes us. Im getting the hang of working out, i feel like my body craves for me to work out which it never really has done before. By this time i would have given up and went back to my old ways but im sticking with it, im tired of my old ways. I weighed myself when i got home from swimming lessons and i lost another pound. So now i weigh 268 woo hoo feels good. For dinner tonight we made burrito bowls and mine was made with quinoa and man was it good, it seriously tasted like chipotle, very satisfying. Until next time…. Goodnight

Cauliflower pizza crust is my new bff

I didn’t work today so I was excited to sleep in. I turned off my alarm and was sleeping good, until 4:30am came around when my husband bumped me in his sleep and woke me up. That was it I was up and ready for the day😔 I really wanted to sleep in and enjoy it. Went to breakfast with my bestie,  went to Perkins then took the kids to monkey house to burn off some energy then to target. Tonight for dinner we tried something new, cauliflower pizza crust. I had it once at girls weekend when my cousin made it and I loved it have been talking about it to hubby since. I did research for it on Pinterest and found a recipe on how to make it. It seemed really complicating with the riced cauliflower, microwaving and drying. Well it wasn’t as hard as I thought it sounded. Made my first batch and while the crust was cooking man it smelled so good, like you just walked into a pizza shop. The first one was made with pizza sauce, pepperoni and Italian cheese. They family really liked it, Phew hubby and kids approved. Then I made mine I didn’t flatten it out as thin as this first and I added a cream cheese pesto for sauce, leftover chicken, tomatoes, basil and fresh mozzarella. All I can say is this will be made again in the house and the pizza toppings are going to get better. I started looking up recipes for different uses and found some other ways to use cauliflower and a different recipe which I will try next time for the crust. If you have been hesitant on trying the cauliflower crust try it it is so good. Also I weighed myself yesterday and I lost a pound . Yoo hoo that feels good. Until next time …. Goodnight

step 1: Thyroid test and ultra sound

Was a busy morning I had to get my daughter up with me so I could drop her off at day care. I made breakfast for three, lunch and snacks for me and coffee for myself. Out the door stopped to get gas and washer fluid then dropped my daughter off. Went to work and was there early which was nice After work I came home and worked out with the hubby took a shower and went to my doc appointment. I had an ultra sound done on my thyroid since they are a little swollen and to see if there are any nodules. I’m a little nervous but happy to be getting this done all at the same time. I’m happy because this could be some of the cause to my problems and it’s a simple fix, take pills. Im nervous because if it’s not my thyroid then there are other steps I have to take to deal with my problems. I will definatly keep you updated. My goal for this week is going pretty good today I added cinnamon to my coffee. I’m experimenting to see what I like and how to cut out all that creamer. Until next time …. Good night

I miss all my creamer

Was up early today to get to work to drive so I packed my breakfast and lunch so when I arrived back at center I could warm everything up before heading out. I made almond joe oatmeal today delicious and sloppy joes with quinoa and green beans. Well I forgot the bun for sloppy joes so I just mixed the quinoa and meat all together, why not it’s going to the same area😀. For dinner tonight we made turkey tacos and I wanted to use lettuce as my shell well I ended up buying the wrong lettuce. So I filled up my shell with lettuce tomatoes little bit of meat, cheese, sour cream and salsa. Had black beans and Mexican rice in the side. Wanted another taco so I pretty much just made a salad on my plate and ate it that way without the shell😔. I did feel good today since I didn’t have so much processed food in my body. Then hubby and I shared a salted caramel cupcake I think I got my sweet fix for awhile. One thing I struggle with is I don’t bring snacks with me to work, so like today between my meals I was so hungry. When I got home a had cheese and crackers 6 each that tied me over until dinner time. But now that it’s bed time I’m hungry. I have to wait until morning to eat. Also for my goal on cutting creamer down this morning I put vanilla extract, 2 tablespoons of creamer and 1 teaspoon of sugar that was it. It wasn’t bad but I sure do miss all my creamer. Until next time…. Good night